Category: Today

Merry Merry Christmas!

Merry Merry Christmas! And Happy Holidays, Hanukkah, and everything that doesn’t get proper attention.

I’ve had an excellent evening all in all, but not without plagued by moments of melancholy about life, people I care about being far away, and such. But I do adore the holidays, and my family visited an old mission that has been turned into a hotel, and decorated grandly for Christmas. Even though it was far away, the drive was pleasant. I was going to write about everything, the good and the bad, the feel of Christmas, all of that, but now it has gotten late and I am tired. So, I think bed is in order instead. And I’ll probably never get back around to some of those things, but that’s just fine.

Nevertheless, I thought it appropriate to commemorate the season.

So, I hope everyone is having an excellent day, and holiday, in general.

Merry Christmas Eve!

I have also attempted to find motivation to finish my wrapping which is really about to become a problem if I don’t make a larger dent in it real soon.

But I feel Christmasy, and that is nice. I’ve been playing my christmas playlist on my ipad and that makes wrapping presents easier, and though this is not the most christmasy christmas of them all, it is nice.

Here’s to everyone– hoping for the best for your holiday season.

Sick Days

It looks like life has a chance to get interesting again.

I didn’t work full time at the office this last week and it makes me sad. I like working there. I really do. It’s hectic.. but a productive hectic.

At home I am stressing out over this re-inspection of our place for “general uncleanliness” now my house is messy, but a cluttered OMG. It’s not a hordes of rotten food, and garbage piled up in corners kinda messy but I have been

I am stressing so much over this since I hadn’t felt good and I just wanted to cancel any plans I thought of having and hide from the world. *sighs* and THAT is not going to happen any time soon.

Now I am feeling better and that is a plus. Glitter is also doing good and she was an amazing companion to have while I was on the couch.

It’s Awesome And It Was Only $6

I got a big coffee table book about ocean animals for $6 at Borders today 🙂 I really wanted a couple of books like that for the extra big shelves on my bookshelf, and it’s a nice addition. My other one so far is a Norman Rockwell book, so we’ll see how it goes as I get the thing finished and set up. There was one for only $10 on natural disasters, but it came to my mid-thigh in length, so I don’t think it would have fit even on the big shelves.

I am more worried about fitting my small books so they don’t look weird, but I just had a genius idea involving wall hanging hardware and string that I may test out later …

The Short List

So I am going to be a new mother soon, and there is this sort of random question that is going through my head. What if you don’t have enough people to have a baby shower? I mean, I don’t know. I’m having a boy so my sister is throwing me one. I had mostly family in mind for my first one.

It will be thrown at my mom’s church, and there was a lot of people I didn’t know there either. Which made me do this: o_O basically, but it was people my mom knew… so I don’t know. I guess I feel weird and uncomfortable being the center of attention. Especially around family that I’m not 100% comfortable around in the first place. (Mostly family I only see once or twice a year–at Christmas time or the rare family reunion.)

I don’t really have any friends, so… it bothers me, I guess. Ok, I really don’t have any friends. My last shower I had two show up to was for a good friend of mine since elementary school and her boyfriend at the time. Even then, I don’t really talk to her anymore, but I think she’ll show up. I guess i’m just a little bit depressed because I’m very anti social, and I’d like for this baby shower to be more of a happier occasion rather than something completely awkward where i’m fumbling around and basically talking about my pregnancy to people that really, really could care less and that are only there out of respect. (My dad’s side of the family is a lot more wealthy than this side so i don’t know. They kind of like to show off sometimes.)

I guess I’m a little mad at myself for not socializing more so I could have… people to really talk to and have fun with there, I guess. Not for the gifts, I really could care less about that. (Although it helps in the long run haha)

I was thinking of talking to my sister who is throwing my shower, and seeing if it would be possible to only get the people I’m comfortable around to show up… but that would only make the shower about 3-4 people in attendance. (Excluding mom, sister, my husband.. you know the really close people.) I guess i’m just a little confused and looking for some support from people in a similar situation. Or have any advice.

Maybe i’m just worrying over nothing… which I’m doing a lot lately..